believe

I believe in her no matter what she thinks. I know that right now she is trying to figure out who she is but the way she is figuring herself out makes no since. I try to voice to you but you don't want to hear.When you ask me for my help you take the advise you want and throw the rest out the door. Listen and understand me, i am here for your help. I listen, speak, and let you make your decisions. People don't tell you no because they no you will do it anyways. I love you and cant let you fall down that same hole that was once neck deep in. Trust me there is a better way out. You might think that you have seen a lot but you have not. I have seen death to two friends, out mother cry, our sister in hell, i have seen the evil side of the world. The one that they have shielded you from all these years. The shield that is 5 feet taller than what you are, because of younger days when you were hurt, All these things you don't see is that when you hurt i hurt. when your sad i am sad. If your in trouble i feel as if i have done trouble. What i am here to tell you is that i have faith in you no matter what. You know that you can do anything you want. You just don't set your mind to it. So my advise to you little girl is buckle up and hold on tight. If you don't get your shit together its going to be a really really bad ride. Remember what i said, what you feel i feel. So just remember that you are taking me down with you, i am going to be with you till the end.

in gerneral

one song describes just about how i feel right now


One Less Reason - Favorite Color

Central

So i have been back since Friday.. but hey it is all good.. I had a great birthday.. It Rocked I went to Ohio to see my friend Brad.. He is just awesome. I'm going to Alaska in June so that should be pretty hardcore. Life itself is going really good at the moment.. Things are going in a line a little at a time.. I start school in August I'm Really pumped about that. I miss school a lot. I was cleaning my room the other day. More like move the dresser and under everything cleaning. Well I ran into a photo album and it just made me laugh so hard. There were pictures in there from when i went to Central Catholic High School. The ones from my freshman year just had me on the floor. I remembered there was a foot ball game. lol.. And I looked behind me out into the parking lot and there was a guy with a snake seriously a snake.. it was huge.. i remember Wil being there. As i think Bree or Nora and I were standing there i decided to yell I like big snakes or something along the lines of that.. However it went it came out really sexual. ha ha ha. I miss Wil, Nora, Justin, Taber, Croft.. I was wondering how my life would have been if i had stayed at Central. Not that i regret leaving, i have made so many friends. I have been threw some mighty struggles. All of which have made me stronger in life. So it is all good. I think that i want to take a trip to St. Louis to see Nora.. that would just be freaking great. I love that girl. but yes. everything is great.. life is going good.. sorry that i haven't been writing anything lately.. but now there will be more.. I'm back and ready for action.. lol