I've realized

So basically by talking to alot of people lately.. and i have realized.. that i do whatever it is i need to do to please people... specially my mom and sisters.. i say what i know they want to here.. and i will do what it is that they want me to do. its a little crazy. i know that people walk all over me.. yet i still do nothing i dont speak up to them.. i just let it go.. and become depressed.. its like thursday is my birthday.. and my friend asked me what i wanted.. and i chose to go to ohio to see another friend. my mom asks the normal mom questions.. which is fine i understand that.. but i know my mom and i can tell by the tone in her voice.. that it is like oh i would rather you not go.. or she says the if your friend cant take you.. than i will do it.. which is code for i would rather take you.. i just want to do something.. by myself with my friend.. i understand that mom cares.. i do.. then now that my dad didnt get payed on time it is going to cause a huge conflict.. to where im going to get bitched at for it.. but its what i do .. i let people take there shit out on me.. and i just blow it off..