Tired

Of having to watch over my sister every time she gets drunk. Tried of listening to her call me mom because im trying to help. Tired of feeling depressed because i let someone out of my life. I only let them out due to the fact that i thought someone else could not handle that i was with the. Also Tired of letting people walk all over me. I know they do so why dont i stop it. Sick of people judgeing people by the cloths that they wear or by the way they look. Tired of not having someone to talk to because i listen to everyone else and dont want to bother people with my issues. Sick and tired of having my heart hurt so many times because i have faith in people. Tired of makeing friends than something goes wrong and i never talk to them again. Tired of my sets of parents arguing. Tired of having to back up my sister to make sure she stays out of trouble. Tired of depending on alcohol to make me feel a little bit happier than what i am. Tired of getting no where in life no matter how hard i try to make it right. Tired of being depressed. Tired of fake friends. Tired of not having all the greater things in life. Basically im Tired of being tired. Im sick of being sick. Ok i've had a bad night i thought it would have gone alot smoother than what it did. I know i have alot of good in my life. i am just avoiding seeing it right now..